So my first day back

So my first day back at work after handing in my notice went by fairly smoothly. It kind of feels like everyone is looking at me like I might snap at any moment and douse them in petrol, which couldn’t really be further from the truth. As it is I feel this really strange mixture of horror and delight at my actions.

Because I am leaving, I don’t feel as emotionally involved in the site and the decisions that are made about it. This means that work itself has become quite relaxing. And as the stress fades, the things that I love about the company are becoming clearer to me: the people I work with are almost uniformly great and I love the company’s attitude and outlook. This then triggers the horror – I’ve handed in my notice. Oh my god. But it only lasts a moment. I know that if I stayed I’d be fighting the frustration daily.