There’s currently a job going at the BBC and you can apply for it online and I’m completely obsessed with it. I need this job. I crave this job. But because of that, I’ve been putting off applying for it all week. I want my application to be perfect. It has to be great. It’s too intimidating a project. If I don’t get it, I’ll be incredibly depressed. It’s got to be done today otherwise I miss the deadline. I feel ill.