Today’s crisis of indecision regards the BBC. I was supposed to hear from them about this first interview yesterday. But I have not. Does this mean that I can expect a letter from them through the post in a few days telling me not to give up the day … er … – or does this mean that the message got lost when my phone was stolen and the SIM card transferred. Or does it mean that they simply haven’t had time to get around to it? This whole process has felt like torture and I’m more than slightly frustrated with them for not making it an educational and smooth-running application. But of course I can’t be frustrated – because I as yet do not know if the failure of communication is at my end.