I’m up, showered and on the net by eight am. I was awake before seven. And I don’t have to be at work before one. Why am I up? Because I’m nervous. Why am I nervous? Because I’m going to have to commit to a flat. Why does that worry me? Because I haven’t finalised a job yet. Why have I not finalised the job yet? Because I’m being pulled in two directions at once, and each day the pull from one direction or the other seems to increase or slacken off.